Manifesting and the Soul Journey

The last few days have been fun. My friend and I have been gathering furniture to make a group room, a little Soul Sanctuary, here in Nelson. I knew I was coming back to New Zealand to create a retreat centre and had no idea how that would happen, and here is the first small and simple manifestation of my dream; a place where people can gather to raise consciousness and step into the bigger space and energy of co-creation.

My heart sings. It’s such a wonderful feeling when things come together easily like this. I’ve been studying and practicing and inquiring into the creative process all my life, yet it still remains a mystery. Numerous people have written about the process of manifestation, talked about it, made dvds about it, yet how do we actually translate all those ideas into practice? And what makes the difference between success and failure? Why is it that sometimes things flow easily and effortlessly, like the group room, and other times, try as we might our efforts only meet with frustration and disappointment ?

I’m remembering how, as a younger woman, I experienced an ease of creation most of the time. So much so it was as if I was charmed. For example, when I decided I was ready to start working as a Gestalt therapist, I declared I would have four clients by the next week. And I did. Around the same time I started my first business, Teamwork, and with no experience of how to run a business, I easily acquired a weekly allowance and swanned into the bank for a small loan to get me started. It all lined up effortlessly.

A decade later my lucky charm appeared to fail. Rubbing my Aladdin’s lamp to bring forth these easy connections with business and money, brought forth meager results. Or, at least that’s how it appeared to me at the time. What had changed?

The first thing I notice when I look back on my younger self is, I didn’t have any doubts. There was no gap between my desire and my expectation of success. That surety was sometimes interpreted by others as arrogance; I was sovereign in my domain and commanded reality to follow my will. I didn’t worry about whether things would work out or not. There was a seamless movement from desire to action.

Yet, at the same time, this confidence was built on shaky foundations and when push came to shove I easily crumbled. As a manifestor , I had a lot to learn about standing in my power and carrying things through all the way to the end.  During my 30’s I experienced several painful personal disappointments and traumatic group events which fragmented my sense of self. It was as if I had been ambushed and my magic lantern smashed.  At the same time this fragmentation opened up deeper dimensions of Self and I entered into my journey of deep soul healing. It has taken many years to piece the lantern back together again in a new way. Now I see it whole and burnished and glowing with light.

The other day, I was looking for something to read and my friend handed me a copy of “Ask and it is Given” by Esther and Jerry  Hicks. I had seen this book many times yet never been attracted to it. Now, I was reluctant at first yet, as I started to read, the magic of the words communicated to me.

It’s message is very similar to the movie, The Secret.  Here is a brief summary:

Source energy is a stream of well being.

We are one with Source.

Whatever we ask for, we are given.

We will only receive what we ask for when we are open to receive it. That means our energy has to be aligned with the well being of Source.

When our energy is not so aligned, we receive a reflection of our lower consciousness energy. Or, in other words we receive a reflection of our fear, resentment,  feelings of unworthiness or disempowerment.  ( And our failure to manifest what we desire  then reinforces those feelings of unworthiness and disempowerment.)

Our emotions are a surefire guide to show us when we are aligned or not aligned with the well being of Source. When we are aligned we feel positive and radiate good will. When we are not aligned we feel miserable and vibrate at a lower level.

The Aladdin’s lamp of manifestation is our radiant Source energy and our first responsibility as a powerful manifestor is to keep this Source energy burning bright.

Old trauma in our energy system blocks Source energy. There are still relatively few people on the planet who have reached a stable state of enlightened consciousness and are at Source constantly. Most of us on a conscious path are in a process of healing and mending the holes in our psychic foundations. I call this being on the Soul Journey, the journey to remember who we truly are and reconnect with our true power. When we become consciously engaged with this process we start manifesting more from a soul level rather than from the needs of the personality. The personality is concerned with self image, with looking good and feeling good and being seen to have it altogether. The old paradigm consumer culture caters to the needs of the personality. The soul is on a very different mission and is only concerned with truth, wholeness and unconditional love and acceptance. What we manifest from soul we are often shown how we are not yet whole, and from the personality’s point of view this can look like failure. It wounds our immature narcissism to be seen as needy, disheveled, wanting, not knowing, impoverished. All those years when I thought I wasn’t being successful I was actually manifesting  powerfully, but  because I was in a process of stripping away the old, rather than adding something to myself, I didn’t always recognize what came to me as being for my good. When we can learn to welcome everything that comes as a manifestation of the sacred mirror of life and part of our soul’s healing, then we live in gratitude and gratitude connects us with Source.

In my Soul Weaving Mentoring Programme for women, I encourage participants to consciously trawl back through their lives to discover the unconscious patterns still lurking in the psyche. This takes courage because most of us would rather keep going and get by and not have to dig around in old pain and misery. But we can’t build an empowered present and future on shaky foundations. Many of these old disempowering patterns are collective patterns: fears and hurts held in collective memory, from way back, from the witch burnings for example, or the Holocaust. When we free these patterns in ourselves, we create an energy field in which others can more easily and quickly free themselves. In this way, as Soul Weavers, we contribute to the collective liberation of consciousness.

It takes a compelling reason to do this deep soul healing. Sometimes that reason is, we are simply sick of our own misery and self sabotage. Or, we wake up to the realization of the interconnectedness of all life and know we can be conscious creators of A Whole New World. In order to be so we desire to be the very best creator we can be; one who can build truly on firm foundations.

My first group event in my little Soul Sanctuary in Nelson, will be a Soul Weaving Mentoring Programme for creative and visionary women who are building projects and businesses which make a positive difference in the world. I will also soon be offering a short course on the Soul Journey. If you don’t live in Nelson, both of these programmes will be run as teleclasses very soon and can be accessed from anywhere in the world.  I also offer 1-1 coaching and mentoring sessions in person or on the phone. Please email me in the first instance for more information and if you haven’t already done so, sign up for the A Whole New World newsletter in the box above.

Until next time, have  a very soulful week.

Rose Diamond, August 4th 2010